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29th-Jun-2020 03:28 pm - Friends Only, plz.

Nearly everything will be friends only, as this is my little safe abode on the interwebs.
If you add me, please comment and tell me who you are and why you want to add me.
21st-Jan-2010 10:45 pm(no subject)
 Just a few random thoughts for today:
  •  I am thinking about writing a book based off of conversations I have with my friends and the people in my life. It would be endlessly entertaining and informative.
  • If my plans don't fall through, I will be getting my hair cut this weekend. I am so excited to do something new and different with it and will definitely try to post before and after pictures.
  • I really do not understand the appeal of Jersey Shore. Watching them just pisses me off because they are so classless and stupid.
  • No, seriously, you don't understand how excited I am to get my hair cut. =D
17th-Jan-2010 10:17 pm(no subject)
 I apologize for my lack of comments this week. I was going to attempt to catch up on everything tonight, but I may possibly have pink eye (I hope not, because I can't go to the doctor for it) and it hurts to focus for very long on reading. Last night I realized my eye felt funny and assumed it was my contacts. Then when I woke up this morning I could barely look at my phone with my right eye because it was too bright and upon going to the bathroom I saw that my eye was horribly pink. I really hope I simply strained the one eye, or scratched it, or something of the such. Classes start Tuesday and I really don't want to have to deal with anything besides that for this week.

Speaking of classes, I finally got scheduled. All of my classes fall on Tuesdays/Thursday, like I hoped, and last pretty much all day from 8 AM-4:15 in the afternoon. I'm retaking the Math class that I can't seem to finish, Creative Writing, Theories/Principles of Acting, Psychology, and Filmmaking. I'm pretty excited about those three that fall in the middle. I bought a few supplies this weekend-- a cute, smaller, color-coded notebook for note taking, Post-It's, and I got my Moleskine planner in the mail with my Staedtler pens. I'm always far more excited about shopping for classes than the classes themselves.

Hopefully my eye will repair itself overnight and I can spend some time tomorrow catching up on everyone's journals. =]
11th-Jan-2010 01:50 am(no subject)

I wonder if that old adage is true. You know, the one that says about how somewhere in this world there is always someone thinking about you. I know I think about him (far more often than I should), but do I ever cross his mind? And even if it's not him, is there someone at this very moment thinking about me? Do they picture my crooked smile or my green eyes squinting as I laugh? Are they thinking about the amazing conversations we have shared, or the things they wish they could say to me? Is a total stranger replaying the moment I walked by in the bookstore today? ...I hold onto hope. I want this to be true.

I find myself to be living in a world of fantasy more often as the days pass. They aren't the fantasies a typical twenty-year-old should have. I don't fantasize about finding my one true love or what I wish to acheive in my lifetime. I don't dream about who I want to be. My mind swirls in clouds of glitter and fairy dust and every day I want to give myself over to this world of make believe. It's sad, really. Truly pathetic. I honestly want to wish myself away to the Castle Beyond the Goblin City. I want Jareth to offer me my dreams. I want to curl up beside Severus Snape every night.  I would call myself crazy... but I'm not. I know the people and places I dream about don't honestly exist. But, gods, how I want them to sometimes.

Maybe it's because my life is so dull. The people around me don't hold my interest anymore. I need something more complex. I need people who understand me, and not in the woe is me/nobody gets me way. I use big words. I enjoy art. I love music and drawing and painting and, above all else, writing and intellectual conversations. But the people around me appreciate very little of that. So I retreat into fake worlds and false hopes just to cheer myself up for an hour.

...Does that make me crazy?
9th-Jan-2010 03:42 am(no subject)
Maybe, one day, I'll experience love again.
I'll feel that funny knot in my stomach that let's me know I've found someone.
I'll see them look at me, and it will feel like my skin is tingling.
I'll relive that joy of first holding someone's hand, that soft and slow first kiss, the never-ending need to see that person.
I'll feel arms evelope me and I'll close my eyes so that, just for a second, I can just feel that moment and nothing else.

I hope that day comes soon, because right now I feel like a junkie without a needle or a lighter.
4th-Jan-2010 01:22 am(no subject)

I just wrote a short story based on a writing prompt I found and decided to post it here for opinions. Please, I beg of you guys, comment with your opinions. Be critical and harsh, or encouraging if you really do like it. You can comment here or on my writing blog. Thank you so much if you actually take the time to do this for me.

Title: Tequila Shots and Comic Books
Rating: PG13
Prompt: Weave a mini-story using the following words, in order: shell, comic book, discarded soap box, rubber soles, postcard.

It wasn't until I heard the car pull up...Collapse )And good god I hope that LJ-cut worked and didn't format everything differently.
8th-Dec-2009 07:36 am - Writer's Block: Destination anywhere
If you were asked to recommend one destination in your country to LiveJournal friends who had never been to your country before, what place would you choose, and why?

Washington, D.C. Call me a nerd, but that was where I went for my Spring Break vacation this year and it had me in absolute awe. I think anyone interested in the United States should visit that area and that every citizen should attempt to visit as well. It is so rich with history and, if you are from this country, it leaves you with such a sense of pride. And not only is there the history, but the architecture! The buildings are intricately beautiful. It gives you a sense of what this country was meant to be and how it has progressed into a better nation, despite what many might say today.

4th-Dec-2009 12:02 am(no subject)

Things do not seem to be getting any better on the home front. I feel more comfortable with this new person in the house, but not having any time purely alone is grating on my nerves. I need time to be with myself and recollect my thoughts and simply to straighten things out in my head. On top of that I'm simply feeling emotional, and being portrayed by my mom as the lazy brat who is selfish and rarely helps out (when I am quite the opposite) is making my emotions go even more out of whack. Meditation helps for a while, but the calm feeling fades much faster that normal.

On a happier note, I'm feeling more comfortable with myself spiritually. I am studying three paths of religion that I wish to follow. They wouldn't normally go together, and people would probably frown upon my even doing this, but to me it just feel right. And right now I think that is all that matters. My previous study focus was on Christianity. right now I amstudying the Wiccan religion, and after I feel I have a good understanding of it I am going to move on to Buddhism. I told you, pretty strange.

I've been writing fiction again lately. Only a small bit (literally one or two pages) but I am feeling proud of what I have written. I have a goal on my 101 in 1001 list to write at least a 200 page novel, a book of poems/verse, and a book of short stories. But for the next couple of weeks all extracurricular and enjoyable activities will have to cease. Hello, finals! Seven papers and a play are due within the jext week, and the week after that is finals. Then maybe I can have a tiny, tiny bit of a life again.

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15th-Nov-2009 07:43 pm(no subject)

I think I am going to create a new 100 in 1001 list. I've fallen behind on the one I started in July (note: daily goals are NOT a good idea) and I figure maybe one that begins on New Years Day would be easier to keep up with. I always feel better beginning things on firsts, whether the first of the year, month, or even week. So I have until December 31st to make up the list-- this should be fun.

Once again, my life has receded back to the same boring ol' thing it once was. I'm still perturbed at the Shawn situation. "I will never comrehend/ Why the nice girls never win." I though up that Dorothy Parker-esque thing last night. It is the best thing I've written in a while, which is extremely sad.

Obviously I don't have much to say right now. I'll blame the laundry running, the TV blasting, and my mom's talking on the phone for it. I'll post some of these things here, but if you're interested I now have a blogger for my pseudo-political rants and intellectual-type ramblings. Fauxnatural.blogspot.com-- go check it out if you wish.

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